Just Life Updates

I can’t believe how time has been passing by so quickly! And I’m wasting most of my time with work, unfortunately.

Work has gotten ridiculously hectic, with alot of travelling added to my schedule. My fear of flying seems to be getting worse, honestly. With each new flight, I get more scared – even if it’s relatively smooth and turbulence-free.

I think most people become more comfortable with flying, the more they do it. It’s like, exposure-therapy. But why am I the opposite?

It’s just weird. I hope it doesn’t get to the point where I won’t be able to fly anymore. I wonder if I’ll lose my job when that happens.

I used to excitedly dream about being able to leave my job, and find another job more satisfying to my soul – like genuinely helping people and animals in need. But I’ve given-up on that dream. Probably permanently.

I do need the income from the job I currently have. I don’t expect to be able to maintain that income doing something else. I also do need the health insurance from the job I currently have. It is undeniably very good health insurance that I doubt I could find as good anywhere else.

Even though I’m not happy nor fulfilled with my work at the moment, I really cannot turn my back on the financial stability it provides for me. So I’m trying to embrace this corporate life of mine now, and figure out how to change my mindset so that I’m not depressed about it everyday.

And instead of dreaming about escaping it, I need to start dreaming about transforming it.

5 Replies to “Just Life Updates”

  1. I’ve barely flown in my life which I’m grateful for. As for the job I know how that must feel as I’ve been there. Changing that mindset can be hard but very useful as often we can’t help where we are but need to carry on right?
    Keep well 🙂

    1. Yes, the mindset change is going to be difficult, but necessary at this point. I don’t want to be miserable for the rest of my life. I hope you are doing good, my friend!

      1. I hope you’re not but also that you don’t have to change your mindset wholly to do that. I know how that feels.
        I’m doing good thanks, you keep smiling 🙂

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